What Alison Wants (lol)

As I sat perusing my usual blogroll of inspirational pieces I came across some images which resparked my desire for certain things in life. I'm not a demanding person but sometimes I do admit I have a rather pricey demand in things I do like. Sometimes, they're eclectic and sometimes conventional and still affordable. I suppose being in the design world for almost a decade does that to you.

So anyway, in terms of my habitat ... I've always wanted something more ethnic than anything else.



A nice British India themed home would really make my roll in my seat with joy. That with a mixture of an industrial loft space = perfection. South Asian / Middle Eastern architecture and culture has always fascinated me since a young age. I evolved from a Mediterranean love (I have to much Hercules and Greek mythology movies and books to blame for this) to a more Asian touch but still retaining the mystery and the rich diverse layers of the culture. Indo Aryan. LOL How many times have we all heard that before. Plus it's obvious I've had a lot of South Asian influences in my life. I suppose I've grown to identify with them a lot more than my own Oriental side (sorry folks). However, being Malaysian I will always have that Melayu-Malaysian side of me which I will never abandon. I'd love for my home to have traces of my heritage here in Malaysia.



A little bit of Malay design with some concept paintings and maybe a pot or two to remind me that I am truly Peranakan (aka BabaNonya)

Anyway, I've also put into thought how I'd like my kids to dress. Creepy but not at all bad. I don't want kids NOW or anywhere till I'm completely stable to take care of myself and a child.



Now don't tell me those outfits aren't amazing. I wouldn't mind wearing them myself if they came in my size! I'd like my children to look presentable and yet not too old for their age. These don't force kids to wear high heels or expose their bodies in anyway that is inappropriate for their age. Plus who doesn't love a kid in a trench coat? :P

So yes, that is my craving right now. A nice home and nicely dressed children. LOL! Sounds kinda weird.

Looking out for numero uno.

There's 2 things I want right now. A Moroccan lamp, and some jumpers. It's freezing in the office and I haven't much to do all day (not that I need anything else on my plate). It's a slow day and I couldn't ask for more. I need to head down to the gym and get some load off my ... stomach/legs/face/butt/etc. A lot of people have been leaving the company as of late and it's a little worrying for me. Is it I-Wanna-Quit-My-Job season? Is there a reason why everyone's leaving and I'm just too cooped up in my little universe to know the difference? Maybe I'm just here for cold hard cash.

I make lists for myself. Telling myself to do things. Be more creative, be at the gym more, work harder, smile more, love yourself more. And yet I find myself almost too busy for these things. Baffling because I was told to always look out for number one. That'd be me. How do you ignore your own feelings?

To be one

I wanna soar to another place. Mentally, Physically, Emotionally, Financially (lol), and just ... enjoy my pace of life. I don't know if a new surrounding will give me this or maybe I'm just too used to my usual routine. Living out now has certainly opened my eyes to new experiences and new problems as well. Zayeem's Mom flew in on Monday and will be staying with us for a while. I think this is a good idea because she'll keep things (and him) in check and I know there won't be any drama.

I miss home sometimes. I do visit Shah Alam very often and as much as I can. It's not like I live far away. I do wish I had more time to myself. I have a jam-packed schedule from the moment I open my eyes in the morning. Work > Gym > Home > Sleep. It may seem like little but with most of my hours spent at work, I don't get much time to do much before I turn in at 1ish in the morning every other day.

Sometimes I think to myself that it's a good time to settle down and slow down in life. Become a wife ... someone with bigger responsibilities. Live steadily. Work well and have a limited amount of people around me. Lord knows I've gotten my fair share of drama and stuff around me. I would love to just take it easy now. I'm fine with it. A slow life. Lighting up candles after a long hard day. Have a glass of (insert random drink here) in my hand and just winding down in the sunset of a cosy home. Sounds very tempting.