Come on girl.

I miss doing those things. I want to get on a plane again, eat quality authentic Italian food, perhaps not watch my sister chew gum, and just ... chill. Where has all the freedom to do whatever gone? Everything is so complicated and ridiculous now. Everything has it's consequences and everything is not as it seems at first. I miss being carefree (not that I was in those pictures but you know what I mean).

I think this country is slowly starting to disagree with me. I can't get along with most of the people here. I'm labeled most things that are ludicrous to me, I can't speak the language and I can't understand most things about it anymore. It's not because I feel I'm too good for my own country but I just feel that there's almost nothing to love about it anymore. It's a brilliant place and I love my friends ... the food and some of the environments here. I love the location of the country, I love the weather (as hard as that is to believe) but it's just the mentality of people that drags the whole thing down you know. Perhaps this is because I don't live in a highly urbanised city but rather a small (yet diverse) town with an alarmingly high crime rate.

One simply cannot go for an evening stroll here and walk their dogs or watch their kids play at the playground without fearing there's a pedophile or kidnapper lurking around the bushes nearby. I loved when I lived in Cyberjaya, I could walk out of my house at 7PM and just walk around the area and enjoy the breeze/sunset. I don't claim to be nature freak but I love enjoying it when I can. When I am back home, I can't leave my house for any nature reasons (unless my jamban breaks down or something lol) because there is simply none.

I hate responsibility and reputations and wish they'd just leave me alone.