Love will make you beauuutifullll.

Wonder why I don't talk about my life much anymore. I notice it's just a constant flurry of images of various events in post after post. The occasional things-i-want-to-say-but-can't-so-i-let-tumblr-images-do-the-talking posts. That's pretty bleak. So let's talk about life and it's cards I've been handed lately.



First off, I've been trying so desperately to get healthier as of late. I know, crack a joke here for your own entertainment. I'm probably not doing a good job seeing as the scale still scorns at the sight of me BUT I have gotten some reassuring compliments from friends and family (most recently being my grandmother who is somewhat looks conscious who said "wow! you look better each time I see you Alison!") so I must be doing SOMETHING right. P.S I wouldn't eat that salad. It's just eww. I have my limits. Anyway, yes. Getting healthier has to take a front seat in my truck of priorities this year.



As far as university goes, I'm not VERY behind in work but I'm not the most diligent student you'll find walking around. I'm average I guess. I'm not panicking just yet but I probably will start soon. LOL. I always do. Still, on some days I have my doubts and wonder why I chose this path I'm on (education wise). I don't regret and never will. I'm having loads of fun but I just have that moment of when I sit down and go "huh, I wonder why I did this. I mean I was never particularly creative when I was in school." Perhaps I'm a late bloomer.



Everything else is working fine I guess. Family's doing good. Dad occasionally snaps at me and I'd sulk for a day, insulting him in all kinds of ways in my head but we'd eventually get over it. Mum's fine as well. She has her ups and downs as we all do. Michelle is entering that age when the term "social life" starts to play a part in her life. She's been hanging around friends a lot more lately which is good for her too I suppose.



In other aspects of the personal life, that's all going well too. Arguments, drama, fights, consolations (is that what you'd call it? LOL when you console someone?), feeling better afterward and just laughing it off. Obviously gaining new experiences is always fun. Getting familiar with families and whatnot. It's all so new to me but it's still something to enjoy at the end of the day even if it ends in tears. Somehow a smile follows ... after a day or two ... bah. But it's all still fun in it's own way. I learn new things about people and myself at the same time. On some days I just want to strangle myself and just leave all this crap behind and tell myself it's all not worth it. Just leave.

Then I'm reminded why I got into this in the first place. Nothing is all rainbows and butterflies except ... rainbows and butterflies. If shit happens, pat myself on the back and tell myself that I had the guts to try it out anyway. I at least owe myself that. People really have a way of looking inside you and just reaching in and just grabbing that thumping heart and are free to do whatever they want with it. Or well, that's just me anyway. I feel too much. Tell you something you don't know. LOL.



All in all, 2009 is shaping up to be a pretty alright year for me. There's been some tremendous lows but I love my highs. I achieved more than I thought I'd be able to in these last 9 months than what I gave myself credit for. My next mission: to find my spiritual self. Woozah!