by me :)





Days are getting better now I suppose. Not as many arguments. I think they know to back the hell off now. I think I have a new found & somewhat delayed appreciation for Atif Aslam's music. Not all his stuff appeals to me of course. Just the slower numbers. I think when you hear it continuously for some time, it begins to grow on you. There's some stuff I'll never like though but his songs aren't all that bad. Damn you Sociology/Anthropology/The Nanny Diaries for putting these scenarios in my head. I feel the need to write a massive thesis on this when this chapter of my life has passed me by.

We're going to Penang in about a week for a few days for a mini break and ... I guess to rediscover my 'Peranakan' roots. We're staying at the Copthorne Hotel which looks pleasantly decent. Mum said it's a 4 star hotel so it can't be all that bad. I'm gonna hit the pool obviously as I've taken a deep liking for swimming lately (but having Kinna around makes it better LOL). Also, we'll be hitting the markets for food. How can you go to Penang and not discover all the good food there is. I'm still wondering if I should bring the laptop along or just be disconnected from the www. while I'm gone. Hmm.

Time really just flies by when you're having a real blast or are occupied with something interesting. How is it that it slows down tremendously when you're idle and rather put out? It's as if the human psyche has the ability to just reach out and push the minute hand back a little further should it decide to speed up.

I think my parentals are on the brink of telling me I've been disappearing a lot these days (when really, I'll only be gone for about 6 hours.) and coming home really late. I do appreciate they allow me the freedom to go out with friends and hang out but when they leave me comments which make me feel so guilty each time I leave the house, it's hardly worth the trip anymore to be honest. I'll be sitting with a bunch of people when my phone starts going off with texts of the Who's Why's When's and Where's. After I told them all of those details before I left, they still find the need to ask me again. I don't understand.

I don't think it'll ever change the moment I hit 21 either. Everyone tells me "hey once you turn 21, your folks won't stop you or anything." I beg to differ. I doubt things will be any different unless someone confronts the other on this matter soon. The thing is, I'm not asking to come home at 4AM and stumble in the door drunk with a ciggy in my mouth or anything. I just need the freedom to not have to ASK permission every time I go somewhere. I need the freedom to just say I'm going somewhere and I might be back a little depending on the situation. I'm honestly not out there partying my face off or anything (if you know me well you'll definitely know this) and whatnot. I'd just like to hang out with my friends a little later than the usual Cinderella time frame of midnight. Not only that but God forbid I'm home half an hour later than I said I'd be, everyone throws a fit and then get all pissy at me.

I wonder if they remember I used to live out on my own for a whole year without any parental supervision and I didn't die as you might have noticed. Why do they freak their pants off now? If they had gone bonkers while I was away, I'd have understood but I don't get their issue now. *sighs* Well, perhaps I'm not meant to. Parents have their own level of thinking. One probably cannot understand their logic until one becomes a parent themselves.

I don't have any problems with them not telling me to not go out but when they give me stupid reasons not to, it pisses me off.



1. You've been going out everyday lately = I've only gone out 3 out of 7 days in a week.
2. You're always out so late every time = I'm always home by 12 or half past at most.
3. You and your friends are probably out drinking or something = PLEASE, give me a breathalyzer test every time I come home. Please.
4. You smell like an ashtray, have you been smoking? = I happen to go to a uni where almost everyone and their aunts smoke. Not to mention I visit homes of friends who smoke. Doesn't make me a smoker.
5. I called you 3 times and you didn't answer me. Don't be pissed cause you can't go out = I had my headphones on and I couldn't hear you. What the hell?

I'll never understand.

I'm contemplating purchasing Zee Avi/Koko Kaina/Whatever her name is now's album

RIP Michael Jackson

I like.

Mum and Dad, I really don't know what you want from me anymore. When I'm around, I'm blamed for things. When I'm not around, I get yelled at. WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?! I cannot take this anymore. I can't even stay in my own room before you tell me off for locking myself up all day.


I think I should say this one day to you. But ...



Everything is just so messed up right now. It'll calm down in an hour but for now, it's intense and painful. Why do they have to react in such a way to me? I wanna leave but I can't even do that!

Name your top 6:

1: Kinna
2: Nisha
3: Kavi
4: Anne
5: Rizal
6: Ziad

Number One:

What is the last party you attended with this person?
Party? We hardly ever DO. LOL. Probably like a swim party haha of 2.

What do you love about this person?
She's always around when you need someone to talk to. We lead similar lives in a different way. She's not your typical person :)

How did you meet this person?
One day at the beginning of Sem 3. I was depressed alone lol.

Is this person's phone number on your speed dial?
Uh I don't have anyone on it :/ cbb.

Does this person call you by a nickname?
Hmm. Let's see. Do you? Meowww. Moshi Doshi.

Numer Two:

Have you ever kissed this person?
Uh have we? LULZ.

What is this person's favorite store to shop?
Hmm Giant/SUMMIT? Hahah mana tau.

Is this person taller than you?
Yesm. Everyone on this list is.

Are you this person's number 2 friend?
Well technically there shouldn't be an order

Does this person know your parents?
Yesm. Well my mum.

Number 3:

What does this person drive?
A Saga/Waja. Pro-Proton la.

Have you ever danced with this person?
I guess so. LULZ! If you wanna call it dancing.

How long have you known each other?
Hmm. A little under a decade.

Did you go to school with this person?
Si.

Have you been on vacation together?
Of course. Many.

Number 4:

Would you consider living with this person?
I already have :D

When is the last time you talked on the phone to this friend?
Hmm. Dunno la. Not TOO long ago. But I can't remember.

Does this person have any siblings?
Sure. 2 sisters.

Where does this person work or go to school?
She works at Starbuckoos as I'd call it and goes to the same uni.

Does this person know any of your secrets?
Lulz. I guess so.

Number 5:

Is this person single or taken?
Single and ready to mingle? haha!

Does this person have any pets?
He used to have loads of cats. Now I don't know :/

Is this person a rebel or a rule follower?
I think he's a little of both :D which I love.

Rate this person's looks 1-10:
Rizals hot. Smoking. LOL

How old was this person when you met?
7. Some say 5. Depends.

Number 6:

Where does this person live?
Cyberia. Siberia as some would say haha.

Is this person promiscuous?
LMAO Is he? Hmm. He is to some level but then he shuts off.

Can this person sing?
No. OMG NO.

Have you ever broken the law with this person?
Hmm. Maayyybe.

Where is this person right now?
I have NO idea. Sleeping in his room?

via

I don't need to be just like everyone else. I can be different too.

Girls day out with Kinna today :D
There's so much we need to catch up on since I won't be moving into Cyber for some time now.
Money's such an issue these days. Why? Mainly cause I have none. LOL. Wherever I go, I'm always concerned about my cash issues because I seem to be spending a whole lot more these days and not bothering about my INcome. Tch, to being uber lazy.

KG arrived from London yesterday and we're gonna meet up soon so that's something interesting to wait for :)

Long day on the 16th. Won't bother going into detail what happened but I'm glad the day turned out the way it did :)


Le start to the day. Waiting on Kavi at her place LOL.


LKW's no smoking campaign revitalized? Nah I don't think so. There were people smoking IN FRONT of this signboard cussing at it haha. Wrote something for Ziad and Adeel. Kinna added something in too :D


Kinnaz


Capt. Deep /Kavi


Ziad and I


Nisha. Le camwhore.


Sami 'broken bibe'


Rare.


Random Hindi movie moment?


Dinner at Saba' / In the middle: The confused Middle Easterners


In the Indian Corner, Nisha and Kavidha.


Adeel, Zain and Ziad in the Pakistani corner.

(not pictured in the random Cina corner: me)

Went to Cyber again yesterday thanks to Thinesh/T-man who drove me and Nisha down. ("Can get to Cyber without paying a single toll you know"). Met up with Kinna and her friend Ika. Her apartment's electricity had been cut off due to late payments in bills but it was back up by 5PM thankfully. I remember those nights. Yes. Not good.

Anyway, me and Nisha went over to Ziad and Adeel's place. We/I finally watched Slumdog Millionaire on Ziad's laptop. It makes me appreciate the soundtrack so much more now of course. Ika and Kinna came along but didn't stay long because Kinna had basketball practise. Then Thinesh came back with the both of them after an hour or so. Everyone hung out then the rest of us left for dinner at Saba' (again) while the guys stayed back to watch cricket (go figure). It was a rather big dinner party though. Kinna, Ika, Nisha, Myself, Devina, Shaz, Ibrahim, Sami, Sanat and Usman. Bumped into Izzy on the way there too. That's someone I haven't met in a while. Wonder how Bob from Libya is doing. LOL. Papa took me and Nisha home :) I left my sunnies in the loo which Devina thankfully found. haha. I'm that lame.

Also, KG comes home today! WHOMG! I cannot, CANNOT wait to meet him.

Very confused now. That's what's going on in my mind. How is it you're so different one way from another. You're the same person! Alison thinks too much.

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most importantly:



via.

I'mma call this my long day in Cyberjaya. As I miss it so much.
Swimming, hanging out, just talking. Nothing beats that really.


Putrajaya Botanical Gardens


Sunset at Cyberia.

I'm addicted to Imma Be from the Black Eyed Peas. Someone lend a hand?
(p.s. I got my hair cut :D)

1. Kinna
2. Nisha
3. Kavi
4. Anne
5. Looi
6. Rizal
7. Bushan
8. Mariah
9. Ziad
10. Luke
11. Aroon
12. KG
13. Thinesh
14. Naomi
15. Lisa
16. XT

ONE
Whats his/her name? : Kinna?
Age? : Turning 21
Go to the same school? : Same uni.
Fav. color? : Uhm. Blue? (winging it here)
Fav. music? : LOL anything that strikes her fancy I guess. Oceanlab/Armin/Amr Diab/Nancy Ajram (or Arjam I forget)/random bouts of Arash LOLOL
Fav. movie? : Armageddon?
Fav. sport? : Uhm swimming?
How long have you been friends? : About 2 years
Why is this person Number 1? : Because she can be.
Is this your best friend? : I don't believe in that term.
Have you ever dated this person? : Uhm. Sort of. HAHA. No lah.
Spent the night with this person? : Yesm. One night only to be frank.
Been to this person's house? : NO MAN! WTF!?
Went someplace with this person? : Like every time we meet.
What was one of the 1st things you remember doing with this person? : Introducing myself.

TWO
Whats his/her name? : Nisha
Age? : turning 19 Bahaha.
Where are they from? : Here. Local :D
How long have you known em? : Uhm. 6+ years dah.
Is he/she one of your best friends? : -
Have you ever dated him/her? : Yeah. All the time. We even sleep together.
Where did you meet number 2? : School
Do you love him/her? : Nope. That's why she's on my list.
Whats the middle name? : Nicole
Does he/she play sports? : Does dance count ar?
If you could give anything to this person, what would it be? : A hug. And more money but I need some too haha.
Is this person going to be invited to your wedding? : DUH. If I ever get married anyway haha!

THREE
Whats this persons name? : Kavidha
Age? : 20
Have you dated this person? : Multiple times and cheated on her after that.
Do you love this person? : *rolls eyes*
How long have you known him/her? : 7 years +
What school do they go to? : School, SMKTSM and then ... Seafield kan? Now Taylors.
Is he/she your best friend? : -
What does this person enjoy doing the most? : Uhm. Stalking me. HAHAHAH!
Have you ever fought with this person? : Sure.
If you could get this person anything in the world, what would it be? : .. a trip to USA?
If you could go on vacation with this person, where would you go? : See above.
Fav. Color? : Green?
Fav. Singer/Band/Rapper? : Hah started la. List down a bunch of indie/unknowns + David Cook/Archuleta + a bunch of semi mainstream bands. LOL
Where does he/she live ? : 15 mins from my house.

FOUR
Who is this person? : She was my ex schoolmate/classmate/roommate/sexmate (KIDDING)/bitch.
How long have you known him/her? : Over a decade.
Is this person a male or female? : I did say "she"
Does this person play any sports? : Uh. I guess if she REALLY wanted to.
What does this person think of Britney Spears? : (how odd. her song just came on the radio). She used to be a massive fan kan?
Where did you meet number 4? : Hmm school. First grade. Bananas in Pajamas. That's all I'll say.
Were you always friends? : We were on and off friends in school. LOL biasala right?
Who is this persons best friend? : Mana tau. I don't bother asking these sorts of things.
Have you ever dated this person? : I slept in the same bed with her for months man. We're beyond dating. HAHA!
Do you love number 4? : *rolls eyes again*
Whats this persons fav. thing to do? : ... talk to her bf? o_O
What kind of car does he/she have? : Her mum's Matrix.
Would you do anything for this person? : Define 'anything' LOLOL!

FIVE
Whats this person name? : Looi! Or Yeen May to others.
Age? : 20
Where does this person live? : Uhm a few mins from my house. :D
How long have you known him/her? : Since third grade.
Do you care about this person? : Of course I do! Geez!
Do you plan on ever living with this person? : There were always plans but I hardly see her anymore :(
Do you go to the same school ? : We did.
Is this person going to come to your wedding? : SHE'D BETTER!
Where does this person work @? : Nowhere ... yet.
Whats a good memory of this person? : Hmm too many to think of. Numerous outings and trips and stuff.
Do you talk to this person on the phone? : Sometimes.
Have you ever done anything illegal with this person? : No O_O haha she's the last person to do shit with.

SIX
Whats the name? : Rizal
Age? : Turning 20
Where is this person from? : Here + Kedah right?
How long have you known this person? : Supposedly my whole life. HAHA
Do you plan on staying friends with this person? : Of course. Always.
Is he/she a good friend? : Indeed lah.
Would you do anything for this person? : Again, define 'anything'
Whats his/her fav. thing to do? : Scout for models? LOL
Do you love this person? : I love EVERYONE on my list la bodo
Fav. color? : Uhm. I has no idea. White?
What does this person think of Paris Hilton? : Haha probably not.
Have you ever liked this person more than a friend? : That's all in the past tho :D
If you could give this person 3 things in the world, what would it be? : Money, Sweden, Denmark. LOL

SEVEN
Whats this persons name? : Bushan aka Boobies.
Age? : turning 20
Does he/she play any sports? : Used to la. Now gym buff konon
Do you go to the same school? : We did.
Do you even like this person? : ... whut?
Whats this persons fav. movie? : Mana tau.
Do you talk to this person alot? : Depends but when we meet up, it's uber amazing.
Have you ever spent the night with this person? : Hmm. Nope D:
Would you go on a road trip with this person? : Yes. Any day.
Whats a memory you have of you and this person? : Uh, last night at Mayuris haha.

EIGHT
Whats this persons name? : Mariah / MZA
How long have you known this person? : Hmm 3 is years?
Age? : Uhm. 21?
Fav. singer? : Entah lah LOL. Too many.
Fav. color? : ... Green? Lime green? (guessing sial)
Do you love this person? : Stop asking this.
Would you do anything for this person? : DEFINE ANYTHING ALREADY!
Where did you meet this person? : Uh, at the Desaria pool. HAHAHA!
Nickname? : MZA, Mary Ann to some
Single? Taken? : I'ma leave it to her to answer this.
Any pets? : I guess not? D:
Best friend? : Hers? Uhm. I don't know?

NINE
Whats this persons name? : Ziad
Age? : 22
Any siblings? : SURE. Emmad! LOLOL!
How long have you been friends? : Wow. Not too long actually.
Do you trust this person? : I guess so :/
Do you think this person could be famous? : Haha he already is lah.
Any pets? : Yeah a whole host of dogs.
Is this person GANGSTER? : He ... USED to be?
Have you ever kissed this person? : Nope
Is this person one of your best friends? : -
Have you ever been to this persons house? : This tuesday I will be.

TEN
Whats this persons name? : Luke
Age? : turning 20
Do you love this person? : Uh. Tough question. Call it tough love. LOL
Is this person nice? : NICE?! HAH! Yeah lah. When he wants to be.
Have you ever dated this person? : No. Both of us would rather die.
Ever been in the same car with this person? : Yesm. It's always scary
Have you ever fought with this person? : Oh yeahhh.
Had any classes with this person? : We were classmates
Is he/she a good friend? : I guess so. Aside from all his shit remarks.
Do you think you can tell this person secrets? : No. HAHAHA!
How did you meet this person? : School.
Do you think there could ever be a relationship between you 2? : Fuck no.

ELEVEN
Whats this persons name? : Aroon
Any Nicknames? : Many. None of which I'll bother mentioning.
Age? : 20
How is this persons Personality? : Ever changing. But consistent enough for me to keep up.
Do you love this person? : Everyone does huh?
When and where did you meet this person? : School. Bastard.
Does this person make you laugh? : Yeah.
Does this person make you smile? : Well, when one laughs, a smile is sort of compulsory.
What is a good memory with this person? : Hmm guitar lessons?
What kind of car does he/she have? : Saga or something.

TWELVE
Whats this persons name? : Kay Gee
Age? : turning 20
Do you live near this person? : Right now, no. When he's in the country, yes.
How long have you known him/her? : Hmm 2 years +
Do you love this person? : Of course I do.
Will he/she be @ your wedding? : He'd be in charge if I can help it. HAHAHA!
Do you think this person would do good in the ARMY? : Uh. I dont' think he'd wanna be.
Would you do anything for this person? : Anything anything. define it.
If you could give this person anything in the world what would it be? : Hmm a great beeeeg HUG! And a cat for good memories.
Fav. famous person? : Uh. I don't know. O______O Who is your FAVE la?
Fav. color? : TAK TAU!
Is this person your enemy? : NO?

THIRTEEN
Whats this persons name? : Thinesh
Age? : Turning 20
Race? : HAHAHA. Yeendian
Do you like this person? : Of course I do.
Ever dated this person? : We slept together. HAHAHA. No really o__O
Is this person caring? : Yeah, very much so.
Do you trust this person? : Yes.
Ever kicked this person in the balls? : HAHAHA. No lah.
Any nicknames? : T-man / Tee / WOI! / Uncle
Pets? : Uh. ... our pet Mei Anne. LOLOL!
Ever went to the movies with this person? : Hmm no lah :(
Ever had a sexual relationship with this person? : ... see a few above. ... NO LAH! We're cool like that.

FOURTEEN
Whats this persons name? : Naomi
Age? : Turning 20
What school does this person go to? : Underdale or something like that. Now Flinders Uni.
Do you care about this person? : Shit duh.
Does this person make you laugh? : Always.
Does this person make you cry? : Always. AHAHAHA
How long have you guys been friends? : Hmm 4 - 5 years?
Do you trust this person? : Yes.
Would this person do anything for you? : She'd better. HAHA!
Would you do anything for this person? : I guess I better since I have her doing that for me. LOL

FIFTEEN
Name? : Lisa
Age? : 21?
Sex? : FEMALE
Has this person ever been your best friend? : -
How long have you known this person? : 4 - 5 years too.
Do you love him/her? : I love them all.
What does this person think of Chris Brown? : I don't know. Should I ask?
What does this person think of Elton John? : She might think he's cool. LOL with his ever ranging amount of shades.
Do you trust this person? : Yes.
Ever dated him/her? : No.
What do you call this person? : LISAR PERNIA! PERRNIAAA!

SIXTEEN
Name? : XT
Birthday? : 2308 LOL
Age? : 22? I forget.
Single? Taken? : I'm gonna assume she's single here.
Fav. Color? : Blue?
Do you even like this person? : Stupid question.
How long have you known this person? : 4 - 5 years
Do you go to the same school? : Naw.
Fav. music? : Uhm El Canto Del Loco? LOL
Do you care about this person? : Sure I do.
Where are they from? : Singapore.
Have you ever had a class with him/her? : Nope.

EVERYONE
What if 2 & 7 were dating? : HAHA. Like it's never crossed my mind.
What if 9 & 15 were dating? : Uh. I'd be uber happy for them?
Do 1 & 6 like each other? : Never met
Are 2 & 13 friends? : Of course. Perhaps more. HAHAHA! I'm kidding. Geez.
Do you think 5 & 11 would make a good couple? : OMG NO?
Who do you talk to the most on MYSPACE? : None of them.
Who do you talk to the most on the phone? : Hmm. Kavi/Kinna/Nisha/Bushan/Anne equally
Who have you known the longest? : Aroon,Anne and Rizal
Which 5 people do you think you will stay in touch with when you are older? : Kavi/Anne/Nisha/Kinna/Rizal/(add one more) Bushan
Who makes you laugh the most? : They all make me laugh in different ways.
Who makes you smile the most? : Hmm. That's personal :D
Last Hug? : Bushan
Last Kiss? : Uhm. O_O IDK.
Last Cuddle? : No one's cuddled me LMAO!
Last Sing-a-Long? : Singalong. Kinna at Saba' LOLOL!
Last Phone Call? : Anne
Last person you talked too? : Anne la.
Last person you went out with? : Uh. Bushan/Nisha/Ziad

Now what can be more amusing than that? Really.
I miss footie. A lot. When the hell are Liverpool gonna get here? (rhetorical cause I do know). I haven't been keeping up with any transfer news besides the fact that Kaka and C.Ronaldo are now both Madrid players. I guess someone up there's trying to resurrect the Galactico era?

Not to mention numerous articles saying Xabi's going to Barcelona, Real, Man City, Arsenal, (insert some random club here) and Rafa continuing to tell people that we're not selling him and he's completely happy at Anfield amuses me. The manager has already stated we're not interested and these articles still pop outta nowhere. Plus he's got an ass for a manager (Ibanez) who talked to Rafa about Xabi's transfer details when he's PERFECTLY happy at Liverpool. Don't know why Xabi won't fire him. He's gotta be a family friend of something.

Season 09/10 start now already.
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How do you go out for a night of fun, only to come back feeling like uber shit?
That is some messed up shit.

For me, it's always the eyes that make the person. When I meet someone for the first time, I always make sure to take a good look at their eyes. No matter where someone is from, you can always tell their stories through their eyes when they talk to you. And of course, it is what makes them unique. On a more shallow level, the eyes are what makes guys hot IMO. LOL. only to be followed by amazing hair.

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