Every.

I hold you close, and listen to the silence between the both of us. I smile to myself. I'm now calm with the knowledge you are right next to me. With my eyes shut, I whisper into your ear that I do love you with every fiber of my being. Do I really? Or am I overwhelmed by emotion and in such scenarios say things which I don't mean? I wish to retire my thoughts and lay them to rest. I want to walk in open fields alone. Completely alone. With my earphones which play melodies into my brain, I will walk alone in this state. I will be with the sky and land. I will be far from home and will roam free. But really, I don't wish to be away for too long. I still crave the love and attention from you. You embody all I need and want and yet, with the conflict which is ever present I feel the most furthest from you when I am right next to you. How is this so?

And with these thoughts, I will go to bed now and remember that this is merely a dream.