I ain't freakin, I ain't faking this.

I wanna change myself now. I don't like how I am anymore. I wanna mature into a person who takes no bull and gives no bull. It won't happen overnight. I know it'll be a hard process too. To grow into someone who I generally would hate in my life now. You know ... quiet, unconcerned (or so they seem) and just chilled. And all that jazz. I'm tired of being so into everything. When nothing goes for me, I don't wanna bother getting too attached to shit anymore. I'm just gonna keep to myself ... it doesn't pay off to be so attached. If I show up, I show up. If I don't, I got my reasons. So the learning process starts.