Getting sicker and sicker by the day. Plagued by the fever, flu and cough trifecta. Life couldn't be more fun. To top that off, I've got an interview to attend tomorrow in Bangsar. Someone up there really wants me to learn a lesson. I don't know what lesson, but He sure wants me to learn something. My body is seriously shutting down from the mental and physical stress. Still, I realise there are others out there who are in worse condition than myself however, I will still rue about my lack of good health. I'm not bothered to go to a doctor though if this triangle of sickness persists till April, I'm making a point to. Oh yeah, I'm sure some of my family members suspect me of smoking now with this annoying cough which hasn't cured itself since January, I can't even-

Oh well, at least now I get to experiment with officewear since that's something I have NO clue about LOL. Gotta find some kind of silver lining. :)



Finally watched Inception a week ago (yes, I'm a late bloomer)and all I can say is that when I first watched it I was like ...



Had to watch it another ... 3 times. I've finally figured it out. Thank God I didn't watch it on the plane flying from Melbourne. I might have passed out on the flight. But NOW I know I can watch it a million times without feeling bored. FTW!

Pray For Japan.

Less this.


More this.

Wish me luck!

Questions still spring up in my mind in the wee hours of the night. Did I do the right thing? Am I still here because I choose to be or because I let myself. Do I trust my own judgment or be led by others. Am I being brainwashed or am I learning something which I should have ages ago? Why do I even care about these things? I should be living my own life and enjoying every bit of it. Or wait, do I even have one? I'm so accustomed to being told what to do and how to do it until I don't even know what to do when I get the choice!



One of those days you know what I mean? :)

(by Ian Gallagher)

Just thinking.

There really is no point in being sad anymore. I don't want to bother about people anymore. Nah, it's hardly worth the time and energy. I suppose there's always an exception but more often than not, I'd rather just worry about myself. I don't need anyone to look after me anymore. If I fuck up and disappear, then it's my loss and I didn't do a good enough job. Life's a mess so it's a mess and I don't need to constantly try to fix everything. It's tiring. Why can't I be the kid who just sits down and points fingers at people trying to get them to do things for me eventhough I can easily get it done myself? Why not? I think I deserve some of that privilege every once in a while. My lovely sister does do the occasional favour for me so much love to her. The point it though ... that I'd like to be able to call the shots every now and then. I don't want to constantly ask for instructions. It's boring. What about what Alison wants? There's also a flipside to that thought. What if people don't like what I want? Hmm, then we go a problem on our hands.

Oh well, I guess it's better to be told what to do after all. :D