they can't pretend that a stranger is long awaited friend - PAUL RUDD

I get so sick and tired by being shunned aside by those closest to me. It's probably not their fault but I wish a little appreciation would come my way. I had a theory that if I shut up long enough, they would come to me for whatever reason. Surely enough, that was partly true, but the moment I suggested something, a whole cascade of excuses and ignorance follows and I am sent reeling back down to where I started yet again. Lather, rinse, repeat.

What's the point? You try and you try to be a good friend/listener/shoulder to cry on and when you could use some yourself, no one is to be found. Frustration, frustration, frustration. Those who I know will listen are thousands of miles away yet those who I wish would barely even are around when they are close by. It's no one's fault but my own for being so dependent on approval and 'friendship'. Bullshit.

I wish the new semester would start soon. That way I can blame uni on every problem I have. It serves as a good distraction and that's probably what I need right now.