The weekend has come to an end. A long break from uni. A whole week in fact. It's been a rather long one. Full of ups and downs. Mostly downs.

I've spent all morning watching Eddie Izzard. I'm a little relieved to be going back to University tomorrow. I think if I stay home any longer, I'd eventually go mental and just break down. I'm always happy to be home don't mistake me. It helps me get away from all the emotional vomit one endures while spending time with their peers. However I need something to occupy my mind now. I need peace of mind. It's silly to think one can achieve that by the stresses of University. But I think that's what I need now.

Aunt is flying down from Melb. tomorrow so we'll go pick her up and spend the evening with her at PJ. It's been some time since I've seen her so it'll be good to catch up.

Pics from my day out in KL with Anne. Not in chronological order.


KLCC and The Fish Spa. Always gotta have my trust 'rebel' along with me.


Starbucks. Thanks to Anne :D


Anne and the Punjabi cutout!


Heart shaped sauce for "chee cheong fun"




Fish Spa-ing. It was hard keeping a straight face.


See what I mean?


But the experience was VERY worth it. RM10 for 20 minutes? C'mon. You'll never get to dump your smelly feet (ok fine they make you wash them la) in a tank full of sucker fish ever again!

While I sat there and enjoyed my time at the Fish Spa (some others got a little more than 'enjoyment' if you get what I mean), along came a father and daughter duo. As they were standing behind me, I couldn't see them. I heard a pair of Aussie accents commenting on the fishes. "Daddy, once I saw a tank full of these fishes, and one was dead!". "Well it's probably because people dunk in their feet without washing them sometimes." I was a little put off and turned behind to at least indicate there were people who understood English around and was oddly surprised to see Asians staring back at me. I fully expected to see a blonde haired girl in a pink shirt and jeans to be looking back at me. Never judge a person's looks by their accent. True story.

KL is still KL. Nothing much has changed since my last visit which would date back a few months ago. I still don't find myself comfortable to venture to Times Sq. or Bukit Bintang because those are places I hardly visit at all. Plus, they're better enjoyed at night in which case, I still suffer the curse of the Curfew. Yes, you'd think at 20 my folks would be able to handle the fact I may stay out a little later past midnight but apparently I thought wrong. They still expect me to be home by 11 at most before the cellphone starts ringing off the hook and my whole night is ruined. I miss living in Cyber.

The most appealing activity I can think of now is just lying in bed. Let's go do that.

Going for a walk. I just need time out from everyone I see (and don't) right now. My head is just spinning from all the emotional baggage.

keep calm, carry on please. (thanks Kinna)

I haven't done anything graphically challenging in a while. No, really I feel like I've let myself down as a graphic artist. I mean I was looking through some old stuff today and I felt so horrid!


2006


2009

Epik fail! How have I gotten so bad? I guess I should be putting more effort into my pieces from now on. *sighs* I do more doodling than actual photoshopping now. And even if I do photoshop, it's always something light and text related. I blame copywriting class for this. lol.


(pics by me)

Leaving for KL in half an hour with Mei Anne for some good ol' touristy attractions. I'm gonna be Japanese or something with my camera and shorts with sneakers. LMAO! HARO! I only go into KL once every ... 4 months? Or so. I'm not much of a KL person (sorry lah, Damansara and Subang more my type mah!) so when I go there I'm literally a tourist in my own country. Hell, I know tourists who know more about it than me.

We'll probably try the fish spa today. Hoo haa!

(via wehadthestars)

[ ] I am a boy.
[x] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles
[x] I am a girl.

Family/Home Life
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

School/Work
[ ] I’m in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do/did my homework.
[x] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I’ve stolen something from my job.

Embarrassment
[ ] I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve peed from laughing.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[x] I’ve had my pants rip in public

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.
[ ] I’ve had measles

Traveling
[x] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Mexico
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Japan.
[ ] I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[x] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[ ] I’ve been skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a play.
[x] I’ve met someone in person from Myspace. (well, I met them first. Then added them)
[ ] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I’ve played chicken.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I’ve eaten sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I’m single
[x] I’m in a relationship
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. (so I just found out)
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[x] I’ve run a red light.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.
[x] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[x] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[ ] I’ve been arrested.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. (not anymore)
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Nordstrom.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others too easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I’m a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[xxx] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I’m good at remembering names.
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

Women are diagnosed with clinical depression in higher numbers than men. This doesn't mean women are more prone to depression, only that they go to the doctor and get a diagnosis more often than men. But now a new study claims to have found the miracle cure for female depression: semen!

Yes, say the authors of the study who reported that women who did not use condoms during sex showed lower depression scores than women who used condoms or were not sexually active.

Our first thought, of course, was that women who were not using condoms were probably in long-term relationships and having regular sex, and more often. And sex, as we all know, puts one in a good mood. The authors, however, were less forgiving of women:

>The authors acknowledge that there are lots of issues with the study. The women who didn't use condoms could be less depressed just because they are having sex more often. They could also be more likely to engage in risky behavior, though this trait doesn't appear to correlate with depression or lack thereof.

Other interesting results of the study:

Not only that, people who used condoms the most often were also the ones most likely to report having attempted suicide. Whether or not people were in relationships at the time had no effect. Interestingly, they also found that oral contraceptives did not have a significant effect on depressive symptoms. Finally, they found that women who did not use condoms had sex almost twice as often as those who did.

source

That was entertaining wasn't it? Therefore ladies, if you're feeling particularly blue, screw them condoms and get stuck in!

(obviously I don't mean this.)

In all fairness, I don't find this article that believable anyway. If you were to have semen in your vagina, I'd assume you'd either be freaking out as that usually leads to pregnancy unless you're in a long term relationship like the article mentions or are family planning and whatnot. Plus many men favour the "pulling out" method in today's world so condom or not ... depression will still show itself to you in it's own little way.

Don't get any funny ideas. I came across this and just giggled to myself and decided to post it ;)

Wonder why I don't talk about my life much anymore. I notice it's just a constant flurry of images of various events in post after post. The occasional things-i-want-to-say-but-can't-so-i-let-tumblr-images-do-the-talking posts. That's pretty bleak. So let's talk about life and it's cards I've been handed lately.



First off, I've been trying so desperately to get healthier as of late. I know, crack a joke here for your own entertainment. I'm probably not doing a good job seeing as the scale still scorns at the sight of me BUT I have gotten some reassuring compliments from friends and family (most recently being my grandmother who is somewhat looks conscious who said "wow! you look better each time I see you Alison!") so I must be doing SOMETHING right. P.S I wouldn't eat that salad. It's just eww. I have my limits. Anyway, yes. Getting healthier has to take a front seat in my truck of priorities this year.



As far as university goes, I'm not VERY behind in work but I'm not the most diligent student you'll find walking around. I'm average I guess. I'm not panicking just yet but I probably will start soon. LOL. I always do. Still, on some days I have my doubts and wonder why I chose this path I'm on (education wise). I don't regret and never will. I'm having loads of fun but I just have that moment of when I sit down and go "huh, I wonder why I did this. I mean I was never particularly creative when I was in school." Perhaps I'm a late bloomer.



Everything else is working fine I guess. Family's doing good. Dad occasionally snaps at me and I'd sulk for a day, insulting him in all kinds of ways in my head but we'd eventually get over it. Mum's fine as well. She has her ups and downs as we all do. Michelle is entering that age when the term "social life" starts to play a part in her life. She's been hanging around friends a lot more lately which is good for her too I suppose.



In other aspects of the personal life, that's all going well too. Arguments, drama, fights, consolations (is that what you'd call it? LOL when you console someone?), feeling better afterward and just laughing it off. Obviously gaining new experiences is always fun. Getting familiar with families and whatnot. It's all so new to me but it's still something to enjoy at the end of the day even if it ends in tears. Somehow a smile follows ... after a day or two ... bah. But it's all still fun in it's own way. I learn new things about people and myself at the same time. On some days I just want to strangle myself and just leave all this crap behind and tell myself it's all not worth it. Just leave.

Then I'm reminded why I got into this in the first place. Nothing is all rainbows and butterflies except ... rainbows and butterflies. If shit happens, pat myself on the back and tell myself that I had the guts to try it out anyway. I at least owe myself that. People really have a way of looking inside you and just reaching in and just grabbing that thumping heart and are free to do whatever they want with it. Or well, that's just me anyway. I feel too much. Tell you something you don't know. LOL.



All in all, 2009 is shaping up to be a pretty alright year for me. There's been some tremendous lows but I love my highs. I achieved more than I thought I'd be able to in these last 9 months than what I gave myself credit for. My next mission: to find my spiritual self. Woozah!

Had my birthday dinner last night at our place. Decided against the grand idea of Tarbush. I didn't cancel my reservations with them so I think they must be hella pissed with me now LOL.




Looi & Anne


Kavi


Rizal, Aroon, Luke, Looi, Anne


The triangle of LOVE


Aroon, Luke and Aaaaliisonnn!


No one got drunk. Honest.

Brought my camera to uni for the first time in a long time.


Nabila / Mariah and Kinna (happy birthday). Mah lovelies


Random dude whose name escapes me, Syameel (happy birthday) and Joe / Mariah and KG


Mr. Timothy and I ... haha I love the cheek poking.


With Adeline


In KG's eye.


Using KG's hat for camwhoring purposes.


KG with his new faux hawk


At Wings after Consumer Behavior. Oh Goddd that class.