You say.

I'm tired of telling myself that life will be better. Maybe it will. Maybe it won't. I'm always looking out for happiness but when it doesn't show up, I console myself (usually with work colleagues and family) for another 24 hours. Hopefully I don't seem too clingy. I want to meet new people to take my mind off old mistakes. Friends have begun to leave, family beginning to drift, loved ones no longer exist and I am somewhere in the vague middle trying to make the best out of things.

I do hope to come out of this phase/tunnel soon and into the light. I'm not drowning, but I'm not floating either.

Went to the mall today with family. Got myself a new top and eyeliner and some medication and that was about ... a weeks worth of pay? Worth it though, I love using better quality things now. All I need now, is a phone (as my current one is falling apart) and a pair of plug in speakers for my PC at work. Mi Gusta.

And I wanna lose weight!