Newer Things

I don't think tired even begins to explain how I feel right now. There's no more sense of belonging. There's no tie between me and my world except for the facade of something bigger. But still merely a facade. I am still blessed to lead the life I live and I've been given such awesome chances to experience new things. I find myself a lot more adult now than I have before. I am running my own course. I find myself doing multiple things at once wondering how I even managed to complete a single task without cracking down. I count hours, minutes, seconds till something happens.

Work is going well. I'm a little bogged down so I find it hard to concentrate on anything else at times. I haven't been going to the gym. I don't know if I'm sabotaging my own body or if I'm working towards something better. My routine and schedule is so out of whack it's amusing at times. I'm at work by 11AM and done by 7PM. Then I usually go to Castle with some friends for a shisha and some dinner before proceeding with the usual night activities. This has pretty much been a staple of my routine ever since I started work in KL.

Not being able to cope with the insane travel hours, I've moved out (yet again) to Cheras this time. Taman Connaught. I live next to probably the largest graveyard I've ever seen in my life but it's well maintained so nothing looks shady or anything. I live with two other local guys who are both working so the place is pretty well maintained too. I live on the 15th floor with an AMAZING view of KLCC / KL Tower and Genting Highlands. I love my room even though it's still a working progress. I just moved in yesterday so things are moving pretty quickly for me. Let's see how the week progresses. I'm still worried about Turkey.

I do feel like I need to sit back and take some time out to myself without worrying about anything ... just go somewhere far and be alone for awhile just to sort out some issues in my head. I feel this intense wave of exhaustion which probably comes with the territory. I feel like I don't give enough time to people who deserve it and spend too much time with people who don't really need me around ... but then again, there's an odd satisfaction of being with those individuals. Let's see how things pan out :)