Might be headed to PD on Thurs-Friday next week. Don't know if I'm really up for it. I'd like to imagine I'd have a nice morning walk/jog at the beach before heading for a relaxing dip in the pool before starting my day. Don't know if Ziad can make it as he has work which really dampens loads of our plans these days. Mum would like for him to have a haircut before PD as well however I do not think that would be the case as he's adamant on keeping this "new look" of his. On the bright side, he's clean shaven again. In any case, if he isn't coming then I don't think I'll go along because I'm not too comfortable driving alone to PD. Yes, you could say I'm a wuss like that. Being lost is fine when you're with someone but I can't imagine getting lost alone in a whole different state. Being home alone isn't all that bad either. :)



I finally got the hat I wanted a few days back. It's not exactly how I wanted it but it was a good alternative too. Mum saw it and offered to crochet one for me. Question is, will she actually do it? LOL. And the look on the far right is awesome. I wanna be able to pull that off one day. Will be going for a bit of light shopping later with Nisha and Kavi. I really need some new stuff but I need to be a little more frugal with my finances this month as uni has started so I need to put more aside for gas and toll. *sighs* But I will persevere and eventually get what I want.

Will be heading to Chilli's on Saturday for Anne's delayed 21st dinner. That should be quite fun if I do say so myself. Who knows, I might be tempted to wear the LBD? Dum dum dum ...

Hair today, gone tomorrow. D:

I want a hat like that. Beret, beanie, whatever you call it. I'd like one. Where would I get one? And I need new accessories. Eiffel tower/owl/octopus/whatever necklaces ... wooden, enamel and studded bracelets ... new platforms. Anything.

Feeling sick lately, from emotional lethargy to physical grogginess. I don't know why. I just feel so sickeningly bleh. I haven't had a proper meal in a while. Maybe that's why. I dunno. I wanna faint and just black out for a few days. How odd. And yet I know if I actually have a large feast, I'll end up feeling worse than before I ate.

As I was having lunch with Mum at Mayuri's (aka Meenamuchies to some others), I noticed a group of guys walking past the table. The usual kind of folk you see in Sri Muda. One would instinctively brush off the sight of them and continue about their daily routines. However, one of them did catch my eye. I swear to God, he looked at least 80% like Saif Ali Khan (pictured above) with slightly lighter hair. Now, the mistake I made here was that I allowed my gaze to linger. Yeah, the Malaysian rule of "Eh, don't look now but-" *turns to look* applies here when I told Mum about it. Ugh, the utter embarrassment. Oh well, not like I'll ever see him again anyway. :)



While we're on the subject, who thinks Saif and Keanu look as though they could be siblings? Hmm. :D I've always thought so but never illustrated it in front of my eyes.



I'm waiting for the Prince of Persia to hit the big screen soon. I'm tickled funny as Disney continues to produce "darker" films to the public now. The Pirates of the Caribbean remains today a trilogy I haven't appreciated at all throughout it's release and reign 'arr'ound the world *nervous laughter here*. I really hope Jake Gyllenhaal does a better job that Orlando Bloom did. Plus cmon, Jake > Orli any day. Unless you're discussing Legolas.

In any case, back to spending my lazy afternoon with The Cardigans and Garbage to rekindle my childhood romances. LOL. Spiffing.

Had a very good CNY/V-day weekend. Spent it with all my closests and dearests.

1. CNY Reunion ... Lunch.



Spent it in PJ with Popo and Epo. They cooked up a feast. There was Chicken and Prawns and Fish and all sorts of Veggie dishes and soup. Sadly I could only as far as sample the palette as I promised myself to watch my eating habits this festive season.

2. Chinese New Year / V-day


Of course, I'd be caught reading the weekender instead of greeting guests. Oops.


"long life, healthy life, wealthy life, happy life, your life, not my life." lol.

Went down to PJ again, this time with the additional company of Ziad and Phentia (Michelle's classmate). We were careful enough not to wear black or anything somber or Popo would have had our heads rolling. Granduncle and his sons came down as well as usual and had the same chit-chat as they always do every year. Same questions ("Oh you're still in Limkokwing?" / "How is your course coming along?" / "What course are you doing again?") and the same routine. We stayed till about 2 before departing for Shah Alam. Ah, home sweet home. Thank God I don't need to travel long boring hours to get to my hometown.


Walking along the esplanade

Later that day, mum and dad decided to take a slow drive down to Port Klang. Along the way, we got lost (as you could imagine) but found the town of Klang rather interesting. Ziad said it reminded him of Pakistan and dad agreed that we've found Little Karachi in the heart of Klang. It even had a huge mosque with the flag of Pakistan in front of it. Of course, this tickled Ziad funny. Loads of little Indian shops all over the place. Loads of punjabi suits, shalwar kameez, pewter cutlery, pots, loud music, loads of bikes, men holding hands crossing the street, women staring at us like they've never seen another human being, ah ... the wonders of Little India/Pakistan/Klang/Mah Peeps/etc ... :) I love being a Klang-ite.



When we DID eventually find the esplanade which apparently has changed it's name to Tanjung Harapan in the last many years we haven't visited, we walked along the shore admiring and discussing about the atmosphere. How loads of Malay/Indian families came here with a whole picnic at hand and how the sea was not as clean as it was a decade ago. Figures as much as the shore was littered with Styrofoam boxes and plastic cups and bottles. People, when you're done with your picnics, please do clean up after yourselves. After all, there are no mer-janitors unda da see.


Dinner consisted of, cabbage, prawns and a fish. Dad is impressed. LOL.



After that, we had dinner at The Lotus in Klang. Mmyum I love me some Indian food.

3. Hulu Yam Yam Yam your boat ...







Woke up early the next morning for a drive down to Ulu Yam. I haven't been here in the last decade or so myself so I had to drive behind dad all the way. Needless to say, we got lost. Again. I think it's high time we bought ourselves a GPS to spare us all the emotional heart ache. LOL. We stopped a few times to ask for directions. Finally, we found the place and it was packed to the brim. People everywhere. Every park was almost filled with families from all over with their camping gear. We drove and drove till we found a semi abysmal stream. Ziad and I walked along it to see if we could find anything interesting, and ended up giving up and just sitting down on some rocks while I washed my feet with sand and water and watched people bathe in the stream with shampoo and soap. When I saw a girl come by with clothes and did her laundry, I was done.



We stopped at town to have lunch and the shopkeeper was nice enough to tell us of a better fall to go to. So we drove a little further till we got to an absolutely fantastic stream. It was off the path and empty (when we got there anyway) so we just jumped right in. Great day it was. Really awesome.

4. i-City



Now, what is i-City you ask? Let's wiki it up.

I-City or I-City Selangor (formerly Sumur City) is a new townships in Klang Valley region, Selangor, Malaysia. This new township is located at Section 7 in Sungai Rasau between Bandar Baru Klang, Klang and Shah Alam. I-City is well connected from/to the Federal Highway. This townships is a site of the former Sumur City Aerospace Adventure exhibition centre in 1995.

The RM1.5 billion I-City project will play a three-pronged role in attracting more people to Selangor’s capital city, Shah Alam: It will attract local and foreign tourists with its up-and-coming leisure related activities; knowledge workers with the establishment of an innovative multimedia centre; and shoppers with its retail and entertainment components.

A main part of the project’s allure will be a RM40 million 1,000ft-long dynamic pedestrian corridor named CityWalk, which will be the first of its kind in the region to utilise a multimedia programmable “sound and light” display to create a unique ambience. Designed by United States based architect Jon Jerde, CityWalk will be launched in the first quarter of this year and is expected to be completed by the end of 2007.

Now, that you have a general idea, here are some stunning images from the location.









5. My name is Khan, and I am not a terrorist.

Went to Pyramid this morning to watch My Name is Khan and it was the longest line ever for the movies. Bumped into an old friend there. Waited for the reservation tic to be released as it was sold out. Good movie. Review comes later. Then we drove to Desaria where Ziad had to meet a new student from Karachi to guide her (and her mum around) while I hung out with Farid and Esfand. Then I spoke to her for a while and exchanged numbers with her in case she needed any help.

Great weekend. Loved it to bits. Now back to the routine.

If I had to recommend 2 movies to anyone, well OK not just anyone but anyone who I know will appreciate these kinds of movies, I'd tell them to watch Julie & Julia as well as The 500 Days of Summer. They're both very different in more ways than one but share this sort of common bond between how they effect their audience. A little bit of inspiration and also reality included as to what you'll come out with after watching. With Julie and Julia, I found myself really upbeat towards the end. Just wanting to do something for me. Sorta like what Julie did with her blog. It makes a little bit more optimistic without falling over the edge.

500 Days of Summer makes you realise, not everything ends in fairy tale. Not everything is what you want. Best of all, it taught me that in a realistic way. There were no overblown SFX or massive orchestrated soundtracks. Just simple daily life matters which touch the heart and hit home when we can all say "I've been there". You really can with this movie. I watched this movie on the plane home from Australia while Anne watched Julie and Julia. The other movie which I caught on the way home was Dostana.



The next movie I'll be wanting to catch is My Name is Khan. I've heard many good reviews about this movie. It's been years since Shahrukh and Kajol were in a movie together. I guess I'll watch this with Ziad at Sunway if there is time. I don't think I'm ready to walk alone into a cinema where I find myself the only Chinese girl yet. LOL. I will tell you it is hillarious.



Painted 3 images of Che Guevara for Ziad and Khalid. Of course they paid me for the materials. I'm really glad with the results I got. It's been a while since I held onto a paintbrush. It was really refreshing. However I will admit I screwed up one of the paintings (in fact, the very one in the above image) for Ziad. I won't mention what happened but it just wasn't pretty. Oh well.

Spent last night at Patio (formerly known as Tanjung Bistro) with Anne, Kavi, Nisha, Yee Mun, Aroon, Luke, Bushan and Zhi Wei. It was a fun gathering as usual, till the phone lit up with the dreaded message of "when will you be home?" from Mum. I'm not saying I'm not used to this. Happens every time I step out of the house, especially at twilight hours. However, the happy bubble was burst when she told me the latest I was expected home was 11.15PM. Sounds like a joke for a person who's about to turn 21 and has lived out for over a year before.

On the other hand, I wanted to leave anyway. I wasn't feeling so much in the zone and just wanted to be alone. I don't know why. It was probably just an off day. I was more content in sitting in my living room watching TV. But I had a very good time anyway and was glad for everyone who showed up. Including those of who I did not expect to turn up *winks*. But I think I'm gonna call it quits for a while and lay low. I need to prep myself before I go back to LKW next x 2 week for payment and registration. I also vowed to be 60kgs (Oh yeah I said that) by the time uni starts and I don't expect that goal to be met if I'm downing teh ais-es and roti telurs half the time. Yes? LOL. And I'll be taking a trip to the saloon on Monday for the well expected haircut and dye. Dum dum dum.

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year folks. Good luck in the year of el tigre! :D

“Being solitary is being alone well: being alone luxuriously immersed in doings of your own choice, aware of the fullness of your won presence rather than of the absence of others.”

-Alice Koller

Been feeling a little blue lately. I don't know why though. Perhaps I do but I don't want to admit the reasons. I guess it's cause I don't wanna look weak? Not too sure about that. Maybe I'm just lying to myself. We all do once in a while right? I've just gotten really good at it.

It's not that I'm depressed or anything. I'm happy and content with most of my life now and I am having fun with the people around me. It's just that I'm sad. Sad for being sad. If that makes sense. Hope it's not pre-depression or something lol. Nah, it couldn't be. I'm just complaining. Thats all I seem to do. Complain. My life isn't hard ... there's no struggles and the problems are merely minor. But there's just something missing I guess. I don't know ... fudge it.

Sometimes I feel like yelling out in defeat to the world and throwing my hands up and telling everyone I give up. I'm done and no amount of comforting would help this crap-tastic garbage of a situation I'm in. I'm lost and I think I need to change my direction. Question is, which way? I want my life back now. I am no longer me. If that makes sense. I don't think I can tell this to anyone I want and the only person who told me I could confide anything in them is currently unavailable both in physical and mental forms. The only 'advise' I got from said person was "Deal with your problems yourself." ... I don't think I saw that coming.

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Are you single? N/A
Are you happy? More like ... indifferent.
Are you bored? No
Are you sad? See 2 above
Are you Italian? No.
Are you German? I could be. LOL. No.
Are you Asian? AZN all the way.
Are you angry? Stop asking.
Are you Irish? No.
Are your parents still married? Yes.

TEN FACTS

Birth place? Selangor
Hair color? Dark Brown
Hair style? Thick and layered (soon to be altered)
Eye color? Dark Brown
Birthday? 18th Sept.
Mood? Ever changing?
Gender? Female. Last time I checked.
Summer or winter? Summer.
Morning or afternoon? Morning

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

Are you in love? I don't know. I thought I was ;)
Do you believe in love at first sight? No.
Who ended your last relationship? 3rd parties.
Have you ever been hurt? Who hasn't?
Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yes.
Are you friends with your ex? Depends.
Are you afraid of commitment? Sometimes.
Have you hugged someone within the last week? Yes
Have you ever had a secret admirer? Bleh.
Have you ever broken your own heart? LOL. There's a weird question

TEN THIS OR THAT

Love or lust? Love ... with a pinch of lust.
Lemonade or iced tea? Lemonade.
Cats or dogs? Dogs.
A few best friends or many regular friends? A few besties.
Television or Internet? Both D:
Pepsi or Coke? IDC.
Wild night out or romantic night in? Romantic night in.
Pink or purple? Purple.
Day or night? Night.

SIX HAVE YOU EVER

Been caught sneaking out? Haha. No. Cause I don't.
Fallen off the stairs? Yes.
Finished an entire jawbreaker? I haven't had one in a while ... but yes.
Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? Haha literally.
Skipped school? Yep. LOADS
Wanted to disappear? Bored of this question.

EIGHT PREFERENCES

Smile or eyes? Eyes.
Light or dark hair? Dark
Fat or skinny? Just right.
Shorter or taller? Taller.
Intelligence or attraction? Attraction ... and dumb people don't attract me so ...
Hook-up or relationship? Relationship.
Funny and poor OR rich and serious? Ugh. I don't know.
Play the guitar or into sports? I don't care. Both are fine.

TEN LASTS

Last text? from Nisha
Last phone call you received? Kavi.
Last person you hung out with? Kavi and Anne.
Last person you hugged? Michelle.
Last thing you ate? Mandarin Orange.
Last thing you drank? Water
Last site you went to? Tumblr / FB
Last place you were? Mum's room

RELATIONSHIPS

When was your last relationship? ongoing.
Have you ever loved a guy/girl more than anything else in the world? well ... debatable.
Do you still love them? n/a
Do you like someone right now? indifferent at this point.

FAMILY

Do you and your family get along? Very well thanks.
Would you say you have a “fucked up life”? No.
Have you ever run away from home? Kind of.
If so, how long? n/a
Have you ever gotten kicked out? No.
If so, how long? n/a

FRIENDS

Do you secretly hate one of your friends? Yes. HAHAHA!
Do you consider all of your friends good friends? No I don't.
Do you trust all your friends? No.
Who are/is your best friend(s)? n/a
Who knows everything about you? No one really does know EVERYTHING.

It's killing me. I really want hair like this now. FUUUUU-

Had a good day out today. Spent time with Anne, Kavi and Nisha. Hardly ate (which is always a plus) and decided to try out being a seafoodian (lol) for a while. Since going all vege is impossible. I don't know ... I hardly consume red meat now. So should I give up white as well? Dum dum dum ...

As time goes by, I find myself coping with solitude a little better. Sometimes 'I get by with a little help from my friends' but I think I'll be able to handle the rest now. Just if case if anyone was wondering about that statement before, I wasn't referring to any state altering substances. Thanks. It's just a little private joke I have ... with myself.

Spent some time swimming lately. It was amazing. There really is a leisure in the art of swimming. The social aspect of it is fun ... talking about your daily musings with a friend while floating and looking at the clouds rolling by ... racing each other to the other end of the (hopefully not too deep) pool ... swimming around just for the heck of it ... diving in ... everything. There really is no better way to spend an afternoon than in the cooling water of a pool :)

Chinese New Year approaches and I see nothing too exciting about it. Same place, same people, same music, same food ... everything. But in a way, I guess that's how I like it. Who needs all that commotion? I suppose most people do but I guess we're weird in our little antisocial family bubble haha. It's all good. Gives me much needed time with the family anyway ... especially Grandmum. She's always a joy to be around.

And I will. I have a few ideas in my head already. Sharmila (who's ever wonderful) approved my ideas and I'll get writing tomorrow. (or tonight ... if I'm not home too late) It's a wonder why I haven't gotten ANY jobs which are related to my field of study.

Anyway, the bill from LKW came in the mail today. All my years here, I didn't realise that international students had to pay a YEARS worth as opposed to half a year for locals. Pfft.

by fueledbyphotos

North Carolina / Tennessee border (2007) - by me.

It's weird sometimes how you feel like you have everything figured out; right out the very last second and then suddenly the scenario changes. It's that sometimes wonderful, sometimes painful subjectivity of life when we're forced out of our comfort zones to make changes that we may not want. The wonderful thing about this probability is that sometimes, you may end up thanking yourself that you didn't stick with your first plan. I'm sure everyone's had a moment like that at some point of their lives. My plans might have just taken a hard left too.



It's Nisha's 20th Birthday today. We'll probably head out to dinner later this evening. I spent it with her and Thinesh last night at his new place in Kemuning. It's a nice apartment from what I got to see anyway. The pool is massive so I'm gonna try and score some swim time soon ... if not, the one in Cyberia is perfectly adequate too.



There is a certain who I'd love to spend time with now. And I can safely say that it's come to a point where I was semi obsessed and getting pre-depression symptoms due to this feeling. However, at the same time I really don't want to see this person because of the fear that I may disappoint them in certain aspects of my life. It's a very stupid debate I hold in my mind every time I consider calling up and asking "where have you been?". The end product is usually me telling myself to suck it in and take it like a man. LOL. And we'll wait for a better day.

Sometimes I wish we didn't have to obey to social norms like these. That one has to be 'strong-willed' to get through the daily muck ups life gives us. If we could just be WEAK and VULNERABLE for a day and still have things go our way or smoothly. Seriously. Who gives a crap about what you say or do ... and why should they judge you. If you have good intentions then I'm sure nothing will go wrong. Sadly, that isn't the case in today's society. People are always second guessing your every move and will try to see the motive behind it. Not everyone out there is a wolf in sheep's clothing. But I digress. My point here is debated by centuries of reinforcement of douche bags, con(wo)men, liars, cheaters, and whatnot. There probably isn't any place on Earth for innocence anymore ... or at least after the age of 12. LOL.

Got an off shoulder top and a cap which both look very similar to those in the pic on the left. Not bad. Now I know they both can be used in the same outfit. LOL. Feels good to finally have my own top like this and not have to look around to borrow one. :)



Times Square was fun. I went with Anne, Shawn and Nisha. Everyone got something for themselves so it was a very productive day. We walked for a total of 4 hours so I don't have to beat myself up over indulging in Nasi Pattaya right now. LOL. Have a good weekend.